The Life of a Lost Son…

Edit: This is me venting… Nothing personal.. Just vexed by the way certain things have panned out..
I fear that soon all I will have as memories of my Africa will be the melancholic bits interspersed with a few shards here and there of a nostalgic past – growing up, friends, family, schools, holidays and times spent in wanton play – occasional successes mired in a morass of resounding failure. I wrote in my journal when I turned 21, that I felt my future was inextricably linked to Africa and that whatever I did, I would always have her at the back of my mind. Nine years on, I fear I may have made a volte face; one not altogether of my own volition.

The harsh reality is that the Africa I grew up eulogizing; enshrined in the words of Diop’s Africa my Africa, Clarke’s Call of The River Nun, and in the exquisite prose of Achebe and co; lauded in the legends of great empires now extinct and brought to life by the tales with which my grandmother nursed me to sleep; has taken on a whole new life – entombed in the murky waters of bare faced deception, brazen theft, gross inequality, sycophancy and all such things – a myriad of false dawns and a future far removed from the brilliant ideals the likes of Tom Mboya, Nnamdi Azikiwe, Obafemi Awolowo, Kwame Nkruma and others of their ilk tried to espouse.

Today, I officially joined the ever swelling ranks of ‘Africans in the Diaspora’; and true to type I will be an arm chair politician; spewing meaningless rhetoric from the safety of an uncensored IP address, hiding behind the nameless, faceless facade that is a blog and its associated moniker. I will sign all the on-line petitions, use the right hash-tags and send the occasional token to the charity back home. I will order home made music by the ‘ghana must go’ whenever someone travels back to Africa, to assuage my conscience that I am indeed African at heart and remind the kids, conveniently given non-African monikers, that they are truly African at heart. I shall ensure we visit at least once a year, as long as it doesn’t jeopardise my chances of getting a second passport. And then when I am old and grey, when senility slithers in and death brazenly appears to demand its recompense, I will conveniently be buried back in Africa, the land of my fathers. Ah, the life of a lost son.

10 thoughts on “The Life of a Lost Son…

  1. " I will be an arm chair politician; spewing meaningless rhetoric from the safety of an uncensored IP address, hiding behind the nameless, faceless facade that is a blog and its associated moniker ". Unfair!

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  2. Beauty I didn't mean to sound disparaging of the work activists in the diaspora are doing, I was merely sounding my bitterness.


  3. Fellow prodigal son, the bite in your humour is human nature we all have in common. Moving away from the bitterness clears a path to seeing the future for what it is and the position to help others experience that utopia might be our only salvation. ps. Great use of white space here.


  4. I liked this because it was honest. Most people keep spewing about going back home like its the in thing to do, without realizing that it's harder than just saying it. Just do the best you can from wherever you are.


  5. Taynement True words you speak – it is not quite as easy as it seems; some hardnosed pragmatism is involved too I could say.


  6. Miss KikkyThanks – was just me venting my bitterness at the way a number of things had turned out. Lara Anything to soothe my mind I guessThanks for stopping by.


  7. I really like this. Feeling like an arm chair politician is frustrating isn't it and yet how things work out is to an extent out of your control or at least not quite of your own making.


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